Artist stuck in a corporate life

So like a lot of artists, I have a 9-5 corporate job which pays the bills and helps me fund my art. I’ve done this for years and for the most part I have been ok with it, it was never my dream to work in an office but I accepted this was the norm for most people and to appreciate the time I do get to spend on my art.

However, over the last 12-18 months, I have started to struggle with this. The more time I’m sat at my computer rather than in my studio, the more frustrated I become….but then after a long working day my energy is zapped and I struggle to motivate myself to paint. Stuck in this vicious cycle I feel mentally drained, miserable and stuck. But what can I do? I’ve got to pay the bills, I can’t just quit my job that would be terrifying! I fear the pressure of making money would ruin my creativity.

I try to make the most of the weekends and odd days off to paint, but then you feel guilty saying no to family and friends… that’s a subject for another post!

How do we artists continue to push our passions without the challenges and responsibilities of life getting in the way? It feels like a constant battle at the moment and I’m unsure how I’ll overcome it!?

Although part of me feels like I need to get a grip…. with the world feeling like it’s in turmoil currently, who am I to complain about something so trivial? Sounds like a very privileged first world problem right?!….

Maybe I just need a holiday, some time to breathe and rest.

Being an adult can really suck sometimes..

I hope I’m not alone in feeling this way….actually I’m sure I’m not. Will I ever be able to get the right balance or have the courage to quit the 9-5?!… right now im not so sure but maybe one day i will. got to keep painting and try and stay positive, it could be so much worse.

Thanks for reading this, I hope it wasn’t too miserable and whiny a read!….

Thats all for now! hopefully the next post will be a bit more positive.

Cally

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